Before you think I am waving the little white flag (yes; I can hear you all snickering at the mere thought of yours truly giving up!), this surrender is far from a bad thing…
I’ve been in conflict… With myself…
As you all well know, the Journey has led me to take quantum leaps in the past few months; greater than ever traveled in this lifetime before. Technically, I physically moved only a hop, skip & a jump over the sacred mountains of Ko’olau, but spiritually, mentally, emotionally & professionally; my travels of recent times would be improbable at best to measure in words or modern scientific scales.
Let me give you a visual here: I’ve been fighting the raging river of Life since I was born. The flight, fight or freeze reflexes (mostly the first 2) kept my entire being reactively struggling against currents, rapids & every damn piece of debris thrown downstream.
Today, after a couple months’ worth of observing, thought-provoking conversation, internal analyzing & yep, even mastering the Art of Being Still, I’ve let go of my grips against the currents… It feels great to proactively float along & say… “I surrender…!”
What does this mean to you? Well, my conflicts surrounded who I am, what my purpose is & my passions. Now, I have the answers to all of the above; mostly gained by time, space, clarity & in general determination & patience to get to all of the above.
In case you didn’t know, my “career shift” has led me to a property management & booking agent position. This stepping stone has opened the doors to amazing opportunities I never in a million years could have dreamed possible.
So, long story short (haha I know, never with me), I’m taking time to pursue the “day job” as my focus. This may seem counter-intuitive to my main purpose: helping others, but in actuality it is propelling me into that very direction where I can help more people in greater ways. I’ll still take pie orders on special request, sit down for consultations, partake in a bit of food brokering as I make my rounds & blog as I feel inspired (kind of sounds like that scene in Forrest Gump when he runs across the country; “When I got tired, I slept. When I got hungry, I ate. When I had to go, you know, I went.”).
Know Krumbs will never cease to exist as long as Laycie Love is alive & well. Even though I won’t be aggressively marketing my foods & services, I’ll be networking, learning different styles of communication, solidifying means of financial stability, building stronger relationships both personal & professional & the most important endeavor of all: becoming a more grounded, holistically-healthier, balanced & authentic person. Of course, I’ll be chatting with the lady next to me at the coffee shop about low-glycemic foods, taking the time to call a friend who needs a listening ear, or taking care of my family & friends that could use some home-cooking or organizing, & even simply smiling at elderly neighbors as I walk my doggie every day.
The movement is still there, it’s just evolving, like me, & everyone for that matter. It’s strength lies in diversity, Faith & connecting on a deeper level with the All that is. I hope you can recognize this & come join me on that peaceful river. The waters are the same, the perspective is completely different. I’ll be around & have no doubt I’ll connect with you all soon. Until then… Enjoy the “Journey of stepping stones” even if you know not where the path leads you. Trust your heart, follow your spirit & learn to balance & accept all that Life shares with you, including the hard times, the sorrow & the times of rest.
I have faith in all of you 🙂
Lots of Love & Malama Pono,